Julia Raymond — Colorado

Course: Summer Intensive 2012

Before Attending

We all have our notions of what it would be like to pursue our deepest dreams, to make a difference for the planet, to elicit our life’s purpose and live what our lives are about. Every once in a while, we open the double locks on the door, we unknit our eyebrows, and we engage. When I decided to engage, more than anything, I wanted to mobilize my creative energy. To discover what I love, I recognized that I needed to take a journey away from my familiar structure. Rocky Mountain School of Photography reached out to me saying "come along .... it’s wonderfully open, and beautiful here."

So with a huge amount of trust, I left my house and four-legged pets to the care of my teenage son and daughter. I asked them to make some real sacrifices to support me while I was gone. My children began to think of my summer at RMSP in Montana as a shared sort of journey for us all. They had witnessed the joy in this new calling that radiated in me, and they had suffered through my seriously impaired patience with software and technology.

When RMSP assured me they could make what seemed arduous more effortless, and guide me toward a positive experience with the "beast" called Photoshop -- I felt a boundless energy of anticipation. My kids assured me the house would still be standing when I returned. So, how will it go when I move to my wonderful new Missoula neighborhood and meet others with unique experiences and wisdom?

After Attending

Wow! I never anticipated how good it feels to smile through the worst, laugh through the best within a haven of amazing people from around the world with common dreams. The RMSP community of students, instructors and assistants were like a warm hug. The assistants and staff gave as much as they could, regularly and consistently. I found shared friendships, expressed beauty in our common struggles, and great support. I also found I was tested as a person, and as an artist, in a most gratifying way. When you want something so much, when you yearn to accomplish something with deep personal meaning, when you have relinquished so much to get there—those limiting beliefs can rise up and set the thermostat to "roast." This was my test. For me, it was as much about taking "time out" as it was in not worrying that I could not always see the big changes happening. It was about letting go of any approach, creatively or personally, that seemed outdated. The infamous "Intense" perspective of SI was, to me, about coming out of the chaos of not exactly knowing what was next or even possible, but being excited and revitalized anyway. RMSP encourages, and points the way. I found this summer immersed me in so much more than I could have imagined—I call it the heart of photography and beyond.